For example, I no longer believe that "God" will take care of you, no matter what.... I know, I know, I have visited this topic more than once... But, really, if you knew my life story, you would question the concept too. I have turned to this power and appealed for help too many times and have been let down that many and more... I remember, as a child, crying for help, guidance and wisdom, to help me understand why things were the way they were and to please change it. I remember not receiving any answers. In times of despair, it was my faith and perseverance that helped me through and not some outside power. It was in the comfort of friends that I sailed through the darkest days. So I choose to believe in people I can see and touch... and myself.
I also no longer believe in a mother's love being the most superior to all. Everyone is human and everyone is selfish. Mothers, too. They are not saints. Everyone does things that will bring them peace and satisfaction. Mothers, too. Yes, I am making a general statement here... There may be exceptions to *this* rule, but not the other way around. Mothers think/hesitate before they "sacrifice" something for their child too... There's nothing wrong in it - I'm just saying that there is no need for glorification, just because she went through 9 months of hell to bring a seed to life. The act of procreation is itself, selfish, if you ask me.
I learnt at an early age that society is a cruel system that will make you unhappy, no matter what you do. So I decided to stop caring and start living life the way I wanted to. Is that selfish? Maybe, but at the very least, I won't have any regrets when I look back to reflect on my life 30 years from now!
You think my experiences have made me a cynic? To some extent... I no longer take anything at face value. I no longer accept that there is unconditional love. I no longer pray for help, I make things happen for myself. If something does not happen, it's because I did not raise a finger to change the situation. Don't get me wrong - there are a lot of external factors that are not within my control, but that does not change the fact that I control my destiny. It has saved me from disappointments, from despairing about things that are not in my control. Most important of all, it has helped me know that I am strong enough to pull through anything and that I can move forward, leaving it all behind.
