A couple of years ago, I denounced religion as a man-made concept and chose to believe in a single higher power called "God". I chose not to give God any names or physical forms. Any time that I needed a push or shove or some strength in difficult situations, I would ask "God" to help me move on. I was living in this state of bliss until this fateful day, when I have started questioning the very existence of "God". Is He (or She, as the Purists believe) just another concept?
We humans have a tendency to attribute the unexplained to the powers of "God". Is that just a convenient way of not dealing with things that are beyond our comprehension? If I get a good job today or win a lottery, everyone else would just say that I am blessed and that God has showered his blessings on me. I would think that this is just a matter of chance. Deep says that probability plays a huge role in life - an unquestionable truth. Chance and "luck" (another word for high probability) are responsible for several things that we do/accomplish in life. Hard work for the rest. So, where does "God" feature in this equation?
Have I prayed regularly and been a believer in "God"? YES - for the past 28 years because that's how I was brought up. Have I received everything that I have asked for? NO. Am I asking for everything in the world and being unreasonable? NO. So, who prioritizes what is more important to grant? If there is a "God" why would be discriminate between His children and prioritize requests? Why does He not take care of the poor people and make sure they have clothes to hide their bodies and food to fill their craving and money to buy the basic necessities in life? Why is there war and strife in His name? Does he not see the innocent people that die every day in this world? Why is there not peace?
Deep, my muse, says that I should clone myself and have my clone pray everyday (unlike me) and communicate with God every single day and see if "miracles" happen to her. And, if they do, would I choose to believe in "God" then? Maybe....Maybe not....Again it is a probability!
